Number 15: Enough Existentialism!

I've really had enough for one day.

Seriously, as if I don't think about it every minute of every single day, the whole "purpose" discussion was brought up in Psychology today too. Like, how we as adolescents live in a stormy and turbulent time in our lives, and how it's meant to find out place in society and such. I mean...well, it wasn't really phrased that way. It wasn't all like, "This is your life. Figure it out, or you die painfully and atrociously," but the way my brain works, that's kind of how it was interpreted. Or at least, what it lead onto.

I'd wanted to be a writer since 2nd grade, but upon the revelation that not all writers are successful and that most of them live in shoddy apartments living off of Maruchan Ramen, it's really been a career choice I've dropped. I'm not going to drop it completely, oh no. I love writing, but it isn't something that I'd like to base my life off of. If there was some sort of insta-success, I'd totally go for it, but I don't want to spend decades climbing up the ladder.

After that, around the time of middle school, I wanted to be a director. You know how the old saying goes, right? "Everybody wants to direct." Well, after some experience doing some amateur movies, I've noticed that it isn't all "Action!" and "Cut!" and such. It's really really hard work. Preparation and planning and mistakes and catastrophes and whatnot all follow you around if you're directing. You take one wrong step and the whole production is a bust. It's a magical field, one that I've interested myself in for years, but directing... really isn't my cup of tea. I'm not a leader anyway.

Just a couple years ago, my plan was to become a screenwriter, and still is... in a way. I like writing, and I like movies, and I'm sure as hell not directing, so why not take up the idea? If I can find a college class on it or something when I grow up, I'll totally take it. Besides, I've read and written scripts before, and I think it's a blast.

My current plan, as of this writing, is to become a lawyer. There's a few reasons why; number one, lawyers make money. In the thousands. If you're a writer, you have to write one real good piece in order to make that kind of money. If you're a lawyer, you make that kind of money regardless because people need you. Number two, I believe in justice. I believe in the court systems of today's modern world, and although I'm not with the sentiment that they can do no wrong, I do believe that they're some of the most righteous in the world. Number three, Phoenix Wright. Nuff said. Whether or not I'll be a prosecutor or a defense attorney or a specialized field is really up in the air, but law school is top priority right now.

If I was a defense attorney though... I've heard rumors that Gilbert wants to be a prosecutor. And that, my friends, would be an epic match-up, almost as awesome as a Wright v. Edgeworth court battle. Somebody, cue the theme music!

So that's my entry for today. I feel a whole lot better now. Writing is what I do to calm down. It lets me get stuff off of my chest, makes me feel good. Mmmhmm.

See you later, guys.